Category: Trust

Orgasms and Trust

I wanted to bring up this topic to see if it happens to any other women (regardless of power orientation). While playing with D (my play partner) a few weeks ago, the oddest thing happened to me. Unfortunately, it wasn’t the first time it happened.

D had my arms restrained behind my back and he ordered me to the floor. He had me kneeling so that the Hitachi magic wand was lying on the floor and vibrating strongly against my clit. He was standing behind me and intensely flogging and caning my backside. After a few minutes, he walked around me to face my front where he could flog, cane, and slap my breasts. It didn’t take long before I was on the brink of an overwhelming orgasm. After asking permission, I had one of the most powerful orgasms I can remember. It was absolutely wonderful! Until a few minutes later…after my body relaxed I was left feeling a little more lightheaded than usual. It passed quickly before I could even tell him about it, but this experience left me feeling more vulnerable than I ever had before during BDSM play. It really hit me how bondage makes me completely dependent. I feel that this experience has also helped strengthen my trust in my play partner. Even though he laughs sadistically when I cry from the pain inflicted by his cane, I know I can trust him and somewhere in there, there’s a kind and caring person : )


I’m looking for advice on female ejaculation, AKA squirting. I’ve read different responses from difference sources. Some say every woman has the ability to ejaculate, while others say some women simply cannot. I’ve only squirted twice, and both times were accidents, as if I didn’t know what was happening until after it happened. I’ll try to explain the reasoning behind my recent interest in squirting.

As I’ve said before, I’ve always been more attracted to the physical side of BDSM, rather than the emotional side of it. Recently that has been changing a little for me. I’ve never been interested in humiliation play because I find its effects to be too extreme for me. I’m easily embarrassed and humiliated, especially during play when I feel quite vulnerable. I’ve discovered that the reason I love gags is because some prevent swallowing and I’m so turned on by the embarrassment of drooling. Trust doesn’t come easy for me and I’m a very private person, so I fantasize about acts that give me no choice by to reveal all of me to my partner and result in me trusting him completely. I’ve gotten a little off topic…my real question is does anyone have any experience with good G-spot toys that aid in this process?